It is with my heaviest heart having to admit that I've lost (someone whom I thought was) a friend.
Things were going quite well, until something ridiculous happened, and along the course of "trying to figure out how to fix it", the friendship is broken.
I guess, I've mentioned in previous entries, that I'm not really a person who can just end a friendship.
Heck, I'm still friends with ex-bf(s), still pretty much in touch with friends from primary and secondary schools,
on top of buddies from college and uni.
I believe that all friendships are worthy to be kept, regardless of how often you say Hi to each other.
But, sometimes, some people aren't meant to stay in our lives forever. They come for a period of time,
indirectly teaching us more about life, letting us realise the bigger (if not uglier) picture about certain things...
As much as I hate to say this, THIS broken friendship has taught me so much,
and I've grown more "matured" when it comes to "handling" friendships.
Every cloud has its silver lining, right?
So, this is what I'm doing now - making the best of the worst situation.
I'd be lying tho, if I were to say that I'm not affected by this whole mess.
I'm sad.
I'm irritated.
I'm a lot of everything.
All I have to say to this person -
I'm not sure if you're (still ) reading my blog, but if you are...
Initially, I didn't wanna say "I'm sorry" coz that would mean that I had done something wrong...
and I'm not sure that I had.
But, life has taught me... no harm in being considerate in saying sorry,
even though we aren't sure if we have DONE or SAID something bad.
So, I'm sorry... I wish you, a good life ahead.
I read a quote somewhere:
"Entering into a friendship opens the door for hurt and harm; a harmful friend or a toxic friendship
can be one of life's hardest relationship tribulations to forgive and forget."
I've crossed one toxic friendship from my list,
and I'm left with COUNTLESS wonderful friendships.
BEST FRIENDS who will make it thru "stormy weather" once in a while...
BEST FRIENDS who will grow old with me!
As it is now, we already ARE old(er)!
Friday, July 16, 2010
inTOXICated?
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Suka entry nih! Agak emo tapi best!! Hope we'll be friends till the end of time. I love you longgg time babe! ;)
Aww.. Pom, me love you longgggg(er) time!
hmmm....buat pe gado2
cam budak2 lah! hehehehe....
(ckp kat diri sendiri jgk!)
well kak, just move on ok!
forgive and forget!
**kita kawan ehh... :*
Myra: this is life - whether we like it or not..
*of coz la kita kawan*
p/s: bila hang nak turun dari Gurun nun?
well said,babe...well said...
anyway,sorry to hear that but hey,look on the bright side,u still have a bunch of great frens by ur side,dont u? cheer up k... ;)
jaz: i'm still sad, but we can only wallow in the sadness 'that' much. i lost one, but i'm sure fate will 'give' me new ones, better ones! ;)
me love u too... soo much.. owh.. lupa plak nak wat entry yg love note kita kat mcc.. nanti aku carik balik segala mala tok nek note ittu..
Lenn: u mean, love notes yang dah kuning2 tu?? hahaha! i still have them glued inside the albums! ;)
The broken friendship left me pondering at (every) night on what did I do sooooooo wrong till I had not been given a pengampunan. I blame the person for causing a mess in my friendship with other good friends, trying to pinpoint what went wrong, how far the damage done. This broken friendship had affected me sooo much emotionally till one day I had enough. This person doesn't deserve my sadness, but being a human, I cant help feeling sad. :'(
Maz: I feel you, babe! Sad, BUT good riddance?? At least, we still have each other, kan? ;)
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