appraising & being appraised

Yes, it’s that time of the year where us, the employees are being appraised.
(note: for those of u who are not in the same boat (read: self-made entrepreneurs), don’t bother to read this entry. It’s only applicable to us who are in the 9 to 5 world!)

IMHO, it’s easier being appraised that to appraise. you see, im heading a small team of PR execs (all of whom are ladies). And come year end, me being a nice superior always find it hard to talk to them – on a slightly more serious or professional mode.

On appraising:
Being a normal human being, it’s always not an easy task to point out someone else’s weakness in a nice(r) way. But, I never start my appraisal to my subordinates with negative remarks. The beginning must always be ALL the positive stuff. And, conclusion part is where I highlight all the things they must improve in future. Im being very fair when it comes to scoring... no bias here and there.. ;)

On being appraised:
As one of the smaller heads in the company, I report directly to the BIG boss(es). The package of being the head comes together with taking all the blames of mistakes done by the subordinates. Hence, stress-mode is switched on throughout the year!
I love wat I do, it’s just shitty part that always gives me the headaches and heart attacks. Most of my colleagues know that im more than willing to give beyond wat im requested for.
Few classic examples:
- When I fractured my foot 2 years back, I came back to work before my MC days were over (with crutches!)
- 2 days before last year Raya, I had to stayback in the office until around 11pm
- Raya eve (which was also my leave), I was asked to come back to office to settle few things
- There have been many weekends that I had to sacrifice because of work
- When I was on MC for the cyst-burst and appendicitis-swollen, I came back to office in time (tho my doc asked me whether I wanted to extend my MC)
- Countless times of when I have to think of nothing else BUT work!

Of coz, I merungut, but I still do all these, whole-heartedly...
It’s all because of the responsibilities that have been entrusted on my shoulders.
And, to be scarcely recognised/appraised for all these,
I was like,
WTF????

Am I not worthy enough?
Have I not done MORE than i should?
Even if say something against how I've been rated, will it worth something?
Is it gonna change anything?

How i wish im Superhuman...

*sigh*